Who Murdered Suede Brown

This story has been trying to come bubbling up from my cauldron for over a year.  You are probably not going to like this story any more than I like this story.  But it has to be told.  It is still in rough form, but I couldn't sleep last night for the haunting of Suede Brown.  I may not be back here for a few days as I want to work on my upcoming trial and all the other stories that are trying to be written.

WHO MURDERED SUEDE BROWN?
                 From The Book Of  Nightmares         

I met Suede Brown when he was a little boy, the day before his house burnt down to the ground.  I was visiting my sister at the time, and she took me to their house because she wanted me to meet her best friend Carry, the mother of Suede.  It was pretty freaky to meet them one day and to see their house in flame from the freeway by that evening.  Lucky for the whole family, they were away on a houseboat when it burnt.  Suede was my nephew Taran’s best friend, and my sister loved him as a second son.

I saw him again two springs ago in 2010 and got to play guitar and sing with him and my nephew on another visit to my sister.  That was in May or June to my recollection and by August he was dead.  My memory of that musical evening and following morning is still vivid and fresh in my mind.  He was a good looking charming young man who seemingly had his whole life ahead of him.  He had a girlfriend, job, and was expected to go into the service later in the year.

His death was ruled an accidental suicide.  He took an antique pistol he had been carrying around, went to the picture window of the house, tapped on the window to get his girlfriend’s attention, smiled and then pulled the trigger that resulted in his death.  They examined the bullets left in the gun and determined there had been several misfires that marked the casings of the unused bullets.  There is a good chance that Suede was just fooling around and did not know the gun would fire.  I have spoken with my sister, my nephew and even a phone conversation with Suede’s grandmother and I can safely say that the more I hear, the less it makes sense…that is going by what others have said.

The last conversation I had with Suede was lighthearted.  I asked him at one point if he was gay.  He said No, but it is kool if you are!  We laughed and that was the end of that.  I knew he was lying and I thought I understood why he lied, and I forgave him for it.  I grew up a few miles from there myself, and know first hand it is not a safe place to “come out” if you are homosexual.

My sister took Suede’s death very hard.  She was very sad, and just could not pull herself up out of her grief.  I talked with her over the phone for a couple months and I was alarmed at some of the things she was telling me.  My nephew who was grieving in his own way was acting out in threatening ways towards my sister, demanding money while calling her bitch.  He had secured the combination of her gun safe from his father (her x) and managed to get the key out of her purse and rob the safe after creating a scene that caused her to leave the house without her purse.  I determined that she needed to make a stand and I decided to move in with her through the winter in hopes that she would gather her strength and do what was necessary for her safety.  My nephew and Suede Brown had been hanging out with a local crystal meth nest, and all that goes with that.  My sister was in trouble and alone while the meth nest was ever on the hunt for new places to rob, and the general mischief and desperation that happens almost simultaneously with that particular substance.

I moved in and my sister reversed her decision to not participate in the use of that chemical.  So there I was in the way of the regularly scheduled drama intrinsic to the crystal meth crowd.  I didn’t know she was using, but I did know something was wrong.  I tried my best to keep communications open and be as supportive as I could be without advocating and pretending that crystal meth could be used recreationally.

It was sometime in late December that I began receiving threatening emails from Dee Ames my X’s X who’s two girlfriends had shot themselves with Dee’s service revolver, resulting in one of their deaths.  Dee was not a safe person for me, and so was not permitted in my X and my home.  We fought about it, and I won that battle.  I don’t let “offenders” into my safe space.  I can’t.  If I permit that, then it is no longer a safe space.  So when Dee began harassing me by email, I realized my X was using her as a tool to get to me, as she had run up a $160 phone bill after I moved that was on my credit report.  I was taking her to small claims court over that, and so she sicked Dee on me.

Dee’s emails were pretty sick and very threatening to me, so I contacted the appropriate authorities and requested they call her and ask her to stop.  As a courtesy to my sister, I showed her the emails.  I didn’t want to jeopardize her safety in her home.  Even though I suspected Dee was just a blow gut, I still felt my sister needed to know just in case Dee might try to come out and make trouble.  My sister read some of the emails and made me copies of them in case I needed to take them to the Columbus prosecutor’s office.  I thought that was probably the end of it, so I was amazed when my sister asked me a few days later “Do you want me to take care of Dee Ames for you?.  I didn’t catch what she meant at first.  She followed up by telling me she knew some people in a local (Russian) gang that would do it for $5000.  I quickly knew what she meant and told her it was not necessary.  Dee had stuck her nose in something that wasn’t any of her business and Lori was using her as a tool.  I assured my sister that I was taking care of it myself and I was sorry I burdened her with it.

The next few days we joked about Dee speculating how even if she had a GPS in her SUV she wouldn’t be able to find us as those systems don’t work out there!  We laughed because Dee’s vehicles have no scratches, and she washes her SUV every time it gets a little mud on it.  My sister’s roads are very hard on even 4 wheel drive vehicles.  My muffler was falling off from just the vibration of the road and all of the pot holes.  Mud was a given.  So we made fun of her my sister and I and I put the matter to rest and concentrated on my upcoming hearing about the phone bill.

Several days later I found my sister smiling on the phone, and she looked up at me and asked me “Is Dee Ames A Lesbian?”.  I said “yes, of course she is”.  She went back to her phone conversation, smiled some more and nodded her head.  She pause and looked up at me still smiling and said “they say they will do it for nothing”.

It was at that very moment that I knew who had killed Suede Brown.  My sister had killed him.  My nephew had killed him.  His parents had killed him.  The whole community had killed him just as if they had loaded that pistol cocked it and put it to his head.  It was not safe to be who he really was…not even around the people he loved.

Since then I moved out, and moved on.  I think about how sad, frightening it all was, and is.  I think about Dee Ames and how if she was to be so stupid as to go out there and try to find me…She would have no doubt been invited to what they call out there The Frazeysburg Pride Parade.  They would have tied her to a truck with a rope and drug her down the parade route Matthew Shepherd style.  If she would have lived through that, she would have begged them to put her out of her misery.  If she didn’t live through the parade, they would have put her with all the Pride floats from previous such parades.  I resent my X for putting Dee in that sort of mortal danger.  Neither of them know about the intolerance and hatred towards gay people out there and what sort of things happen to gay people out there.  I lived there for 16 years and never met a gay person.  In fact the only gay person I ever met out there was Suede Brown, and he is dead and gone his secret buried with him in The Frazeysburg cemetery.

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Come Up And See Me Sometime

I have been very busy through the holidays making my Christmas Feathers.  It is something I do every year right up through Christmas Eve.  On December 17th (8 days before Christmas), I got a series of threatening emails from my 17th follower (no longer a follower) Dee Ames.  Dee refuses to accept the fact that I have every right to pursue the matter of the unpaid phone bill through the legal system, and has vowed to "find you" me (giving me my temporary address in the message).  Even though I really didn't have time for it, I contacted Dee's former employers, City Attorney, County Prosecutor, Police Sargent, etc. just so that I could be sure that my sister and I will be safe from Dee's threats through the holidays.  Hopefully somebody made a phone call to her and warned her that she could be prosecuted for her veiled ( and not so veiled) threats.  Each of them encouraged me to file formal charges which would have involved at least 2 trips to Columbus during my busiest time of the year.

Should Dee decide to "find you" (me), she will undoubtedly encounter very harsh road conditions, dead zone cell service, and wacko GPS systems.  The road to and from here is very unfriendly to the unsuspecting traveler.  When someone comes to visit us we have to go fetch them from wherever they can describe being lost!  This shot was taken at about 3:30 in the afternoon on a day that the fog never lifted.  It is a pity that the evil ones would think they can intimidate me, and laughable that they would threaten to come out here and cause trouble.  We are pretty remote and have to constantly be servicing our vehicles just to go about our daily business.  It would be costly in many ways for Dee Ames to come out here.  She might have to get a realignment, new tires, and possibly exhaust just to what...stick her nose in something that isn't any of her business?

Seventeen

We have a new follower to Concha's Cauldron folks.  Retired officer Dee Ames has joined us this week making my following 17.  Welcome Dee.  I suggest you click on some of my genealogical links if you are interested in my family and upbringing.  My grandmother made me the family genealogist before she died.  I have lovingly posted all the charts and continued finding my ancestors through the internet and local graveyards.  The links are broken down into charts and some of our family history is rich with details.  The links to the right are blogs I follow, links to my fiction and short stories which I published early this year and even got paid for writing them!  At the very bottom is a slide show of some of my pottery.  And of course there is the blog index that goes all the way back to 2007 when I decided to begin keeping a daily journal of my present thoughts and reflections on the past.  Each link on here is personal to my interests and perhaps you will want to visit those links too.  I want to welcome you to our little group and encourage you to keep an open mind.  Stay as long as you like, encourage others to join if you wish. 

post script:  Dee has opted to un join my official followers and has probably joined the ranks of my shadow following.  It could be that she got a call from the desk Sargent of The Columbus Police Department as this is her second warning to stop harassing me.  I published one of Dee's comments yesterday on Paperless Billing and answered her accusations.  She has a problem with me taking Lori to court for the unpaid phone bill.  Lori has obviously given Dee my social security number from the credit reports I shared with her last Monday.  Dee used that information to obtain my court records and I feared that she would try to do some identity theft as she is bent on harming me any way she can.  I told the Sargent that I knew that Dee's police issued revolver was used to shoot at least two women in Dee's past and that she has told me she will find me and even tried to publish my address.  This morning she tried to comment again under a new username but I won't publish any more of her comments as she is not really trying to contribute to solutions and may very well be creating more problems.    

Gracie O'Malley And My 17 Follower

I don't have a photo (from google) of Gracie O'Malley as she was born before the invention of photography ( who was one of my ancestors).  But Linda my 17th follower has been captivated by her as well as Robert Henry Hendershot (drummer boy from the civil war).  Much of my blog posts have been dedicated to my genealogy as I am trying to leave an electronic record of my path as family genealogist.  I love it when someone actually recognizes this rather than dismissing my blog as simply self indulgent (See Dee Ames comments)!  Even though I have no picture or portrait of Gracie... I feel her activism in my bones.  I googled an image of her for this blog and in celebration of my 17th follower Linda (who replaced Dee Ames) who was following me in order to harass me.  Linda and I could very much share some of my genealogical roots.  This blog is for you Linda and thank you for following this blog.  I promise you that I have a bit of Gracie in my bones and I won't let you down in my responses to the injustices of the world.

One Voice For Dee Ames

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 I love this song.  I dedicate this song to Dee Ames.  Thank you for your service.

WHO

One of the hate groups that were operating out of First Baptist Church in Granville Ohio in 1998 when I took flight from the county was a group called Women Who Have Options.  I knew these women personally through both Willow Moon Circle, and The Feminist Sunday School class, which were also hate groups disguised cleverly to lure in unsuspecting feminists and witches. WHO was, and is, masquerading as a pro choice organization that would pay for and transport women in need to either an abortion clinic or a hospital where an abortion would be scheduled.  They gathered, and are gathering intel for a much larger group that murdered and are continuing to murder abortionists.  I knew these women personally, and they not only tried to route me into an unneeded hysterectomy (through their channels), but when I caught them in their lie, they drug me through the local court system in order to silence me, discredit me, and continue their operation.
In the words of my friend Hapi "I ain't lying, I couldn't make this shit up"!
I go to court on April 4th against a woman who was in Willow Moon Circle, and also knows the WHO women.  The problem is, Nesley Thomas is so fucking greedy and grandiose that she thinks her small claim case is more important than coming forth with verification that the Women Who Have Options are in fact accessories to murder!  More horrific to me is that my X would team up with her for her self interests as well, and try to throw me back to the wolves.  Is Lori so low that she would sell me out for a $158 phone bill?  Nesley was lured into the same trap I was, and Lori whether she knows it or not is on the other list.  Both of them are targets by association to me.
Lori was present at the burning of the records.  I burnt the records I had about these people.  I wanted to put it all behind me and move on.  There were 3 women present at the burning of my files.  They know who they are, and I am not going to tell you who they are, as it could very well be dangerous to them.
I bought a zerox machine and made multiple copies of everything I was trying to expose back in 1998.  I lost count of the number of copies, and even where all I put them, or sent them.  The day the 4 of us started burning my files was supposed to be a day that I washed my hands of all this.  The people who needed to know they were targets already had copies.  It is not like this isn't out there, and not like I didn't do everything in my power to inform everyone who would listen and read.  And yes the FBI has copies in case you are wondering if I got the word out larger than my county.
I will remind you dearest readership that after 911 we found out that both the FBI and CIA had intel on the terrorists that cleverly attacked this country.  They had the information and they ignored it!  It is not surprising that they didn't take my information seriously...after all I was arrested, tried, and convicted of telephone harassment.  I was guilty of telephone harassment!  I was trying to make them (WHO) give me my medical records!  I wanted to see in writing the evidence that I had cervical cancer and therefore needed a hysterectomy!  To this day I haven't been able to get those records, even after hiring an attorney to get them (Steven Ames who is Dee Ames brother wrote and demanded those records in my behalf)!!!  You remember Dee.  She is the one who is instigating her own personal hate attack on me in behalf of Lori, and has linked the two cases together because she is a blow gut and doesn't understand she is being used!  What the hell would you do if you knew about WHO!!!  What would you do if they tried to do that to you?  I called all of them...each and every one of them.  I still have their telephone numbers as they were in my circle group, and my Sunday school class.  They betrayed me, and they broke my confidentiality!  Telephone harassment pales in comparison to their crimes.  I have the tapes from those telephone conversations.  If anyone doesn't believe me that I was trying to get to the bottom of their deceit, I can let you listen to the tapes...and decide for yourself.
I have encountered indifference, intolerance, and disbelief from the very feminists, witches, gay people that I have tried to desperately to warn.  I guess it just isn't real unless it is happening to you!!!!!Right?
The religious right is very organized.  The religious right is very powerful.  The religious right would deceive, infiltrate, and murder for what they perceive to be the greater cause.
Would they help Nesley try to circumvent justice in a small claims case in Columbus?  Only to a point.  They are not going to do anything that would jeopardize their own operation...the greater cause.  And yes dear readership they would eat their young.

post script:  The owl symbolizes death 

Garnishment Hearing

Wish me luck dear readers.  I go to court today to question the defendent (2011) about her assetts etc.  I have given her every opportunity to make good on the phone bill that she owes me for, that is harming my credit score.  She made the calls after I moved, and after I had gotten new phone service.  The confusion that she capitalized on was that she requested to keep the phone number.  This was a phone number that she had had for years, so I didn't have any problem with her keeping it.  I had moved on...or so I thought.  The day I got new phone service, both she and I talked to the phone company...so there really shouldn't have been any confusion whatsoever.  She had not paid the bill, they had shut off her internet, but not the phone...so she got internet through time warner cable, and then ran the phone up to $158.  It was quite cleaver, but it was al unbeknownst to me, as she did not forward the phone bills, nor the bill collectors threatening mail.  I guess she just figured out that what I didn't know, wouldn't hurt me.  But it did hurt me.  To this day, her phone bill is on my credit report.
So today, I put on the inquisitors cap and question her in front of a judge, in order to proceed with garnishment.  It has been almost 2 years since the evil deed was done.  I would probably have just let it slide, if it were not for the fact that she, Nesley Thomas, Dee Ames cooked up a civil protection order/arrest (that failed) in order for her to avoid going to court over this, and of course had they succeeded the plaintiff (Nesley Thomas) would have had keys to my house, when I was safely locked away in jail.
Lucky for me I have angels lookin out for me.
 
At the 11th hour, the Art Council may be able to provide me with legal representation for my court case tomorrow with Nesley Thomas which has had 6 continuances.  As of today, I do not know.  I have a strong case, with or without representation.  It could very well be that that case gets kicked up into a higher court, with higher money involved.  One thing is for sure...my credit report took two hits from both these women.  If I can set this right, I will do it.  Who knows dear readership, I may be firing pots in my new kiln, by the end of next month:)

Post Script:  The defendant was a no show.  I am not sure what happens next, perhaps a bailiff will have to serve the defendant at work or at home, perhaps it will go to the extreams....either her car impounded or a bench warrant.  I know I wouldn't want to take those chances.  How you can turn a $158 phone bill into a $300 debt to the court,  get your car impounded, or get locked up...is beyond my comprehension.  The defendant has not ever seen the inside of Franklin County Jail.  I have, and I can assure you, I don't ever want to go back to that filthy hell hole.  I would be paying my debt and trying to stay on the other side of the law...just sayin. 

300 Daily Hits

I spoke with the prosecutor yesterday (while I was in the process of garnishing Lori's wages) and he seems to think charges can be filed against everyone in this photo.  I have 3 photos in total on a flashdrive of this incident, and about 50 of the property problems up till then.  We'll see.  I certainly don't want to harm these kids.  They were only doing what they were paid to do.  They did probably know they were doing something wrong though.  Things are getting interesting for sure!  That would be a whole other trial...and I know the kids in this picture were only doing Nesley's bidding.  They were being paid (cash and smoke).  It is interesting that the two women most responsible for the heinous deed are not actually involved in the breaking of the kiln....one paying for it, and the other along for the ride (show).  Because Jeanne Davis is in this photo (elbow on the truck), her previous testimony at the first trial can be thrown out, or so I am told by the prosecutor.  She comes through clearly in the next two photos.  I was not able to tell him which ones of the boys were actually minors at the time.  That would make a difference as to the charges filed etc.
  This isn't over Nesley.  Not by a long shot.  There are about 300 hits to this blog on average per day.  It is amazing to me.  My following jumped from 4 subscribers to 25 since this incident and my blogs about it.  I can only imagine that my readers want to find out what is going to happen in my legal proceedings.  One thing for sure though, if my lease agreement isn't honored in the city of Columbus, then nobody should ever sign one!  If a landlord can breach an agreement, and pay for minors to perform property damage, and somehow not have to pay for it, then no one is safe.  I wouldn't dream of moving back to Columbus unless the laws of the city and the courts would protect me from criminals like this.
On a sad note, I have not made a pot or clay piece since this incident.  Way to go girls!  You aren't making any art yourselves, but you will pay to destroy equipment that I would use to make art!  You are monsters girlz.  Do you think there is anyone out there that supports your evil deed?  Maybe.  Maybe someone who has also worked in tandem with your evil deed.  All conspiracy theory's aside...between this photo, Dee Ames emails in regard to this, and Lori Rayburns intentional sabotage of my credit report, the case is much stronger.  And as he pointed out, all their phones are linked (yes girls I gave him all your phone numbers).  I don't care if it takes 5 years girls, you are going to pay for what you have done.  And boys....I don't know.  I was feeling sorry for you, but the prosecutor seems to think if I let you get away with this, it will free you up to do future crimes.  I would say, you probably ought to work for someone else....someone ethical in the future.  She isn't looking out for your interest by hiring you to destroy someones property.  Just ask yourself, would she pay your bail?  Would she pay for your attorney?

Pants On Fire

Lori presented a rather lame argument in court yesterday as expected.  She claimed that the phone bill had been paid rationalizing that new phone service would not be installed at my new residence if it had not.  She could not provide a receipt for this "payment" and stated that because she banks online and that the bill was over a year old she could not obtain receipt for the court.  The judge clearly did not buy her story.  She never addressed the fact that she had not paid the phone bill since June (two months prior to me moving out and getting new service).  She made sure that the judge understood that both of us used the phone and internet, but seemed surprised when I brought up the fact that both of us used the electric and ate the food that I used my food stamps for. Our agreement was that she would pay the gas bill and the phone bill, and I would pay the electric bill and purchase our food.  When I left last August (2010) I paid my part in full.  I was ashamed of her for the first time in all the years I have known her,  Clearly the phone company will hold me accountable for this unpaid bill, but she will have to live with lying to the court and shitting on me.  The judge will give a ruling on this case in the next 90 days.  I will have no recourse but to sue her for the jeep that is in her backyard as she signed it over to me. I can't trust that she will keep her word about the ramifications of it leaching toxins into the ground and me possibly getting fined for it.  I am not going to take the fall for her lack of responsibility.  At least a court ruling will absolve me of any future fines and punishments.  Lori signed the jeep over to me in order to avoid having to insure it...typical of how she operates.  Her insurance company advised me to take the matter seriously as an uninsured vehicle in the backyard signed over to me could make me liable for anything that happens because of it.  Perhaps her cheating on her unemployment will not look so farfetched when her other behavior comes into play.  Maybe the unemployment bureau can be cheated by online banking because they can't obtain bank records?  I confess I was surprised that she got away with it!  Had Lori taken responsibility for the phone bill we could both get on with our lives. I took the hit for the phone bill on my credit report, and in a sense she has "bound" us together for seven years.  I didn't do a binding ritual in relation to Lori as I wanted us to be together by freewill.  Perhaps she doesn't understand witchcraft, and that sending Dee Ames to harass me and attempting to have me "bound" by a civil protection order has only made me more resolute to bring this matter to justice through the court.  Sooner or later Lori will pay for her dishonesty and unethical conduct.  Maybe not in this lifetime, but I am sure there will be a reckoning in the next.